I have been sitting here for about 30 minutes just looking at this blank post. I obviously have answered a few texts and looked at a few things on my phone while trying to spark some inspiration on what to say.
I am trying to be more consistent on here. I think that journaling is very important and I somehow cannot stay consistent with an actual physical journal, but I have been able to stay somewhat consistent with this blog.
The reason journals are so important to me is one time I heard an older lady talking about her mother who recently had passed. Her mother hadn’t kept any journals or anything, but when she was going through some of the old cookbooks her mother had, she found notes her mother had written notes on.
She talked about how comforting it was just to see her mother’s handwriting and read the different words she used.
Anyways, I didn’t really do anything today, except I saw a picture I took 3 years ago when I was super excited about my Dairy Queen cherry dipped cone.
I liked my hair dark in that picture so much that I ended up dying it dark again.
I took that just a while ago. And now I am sitting watching Netflix with one of the best sights.
I’ve been thinking a lot lately like I typically do. Someone asked me recently what my favorite thing to do is and I responded with thinking.
Because it is the thing I do the most and I do think about various different subjects.
But one thing I was thinking of when I was on a long drive today for my work was just thinking how boring I have become.
Lately, I feel like I am too tired to do anything. I haven’t even done my make up that much recently.
My sister asked me today if I was lonely and I said not really, just occasionally I wish I had a male best friend and more interaction with males.
Then I mentioned that it would be too much work and I was too tired to proceed with finding a friend or trying to build the relationship. The idea of even starting a relationship (friendship or otherwise) just sounds so tiring and the return on investment is not there.
Even when I meet someone new and they start asking me the standard questions, I just feel tired and want to say the simplest thing so we can move on.
Anyways, I just am wondering if I am boring or if I am just burnt out. I do kind of look boring nowadays with no makeup and no flashy clothes.
But if I am boring, I am okay with it I guess.