So, it’s been almost 8 months since I last posted on my blog. In fact, my blog was hidden from the world during that time. I had it marked private and I even was considering deleting it altogether.
I had this moment last year (which the beginning of last year was not a good one for me) where I suddenly was afraid of how public I was on the Internet and I decided that I needed to remove myself altogether. I was worried about things I may have said that weren’t the best to say, so I decided I was done with my blog.
Now, I wasn’t having a good time at the beginning of last year. I was very unhappy and my mind was in a very dark place. Which means that every situation I looked at was very pessimistic.
Suddenly my blog was going to be a source of horrible situations from people who don’t know me who might misinterpret what I had said.
So, I deleted my Twitter account and marked my blog as private so only I could see it.
My 2015 got significantly better though in the last 5 months of the year and yesterday I had the overwhelming need to write again. I have always been a writer and I need to write to express myself.
I have been thinking a lot about stories I wanted to write previously and things I was wanting to express, but I did not have any thoughts about acting on these.
Then yesterday it was all of a sudden that I needed to have my blog again. I needed to be able to write on my blog and to have a record of my thoughts and a medium to express myself.
Luckily I didn’t dwell on it and just sprung into action! (Which sounds a lot cooler than me just sitting at a computer working through getting my blog back public and my domains fixed.)
So, here I am at my blog again.
Life is still weird, but I am a lot happier about it. We have all broken the threshold of 2016 and are all on the adventure of the first day of it.
My 2016 hasn’t been so crazy. I counted 5 coworkers yesterday who told me in one way or another that I seemed like a “wild” person and seriously asked me to be safe last night.
Little did they know that I was sick and the craziest thing I did was buy some pizza. I fell asleep at 8 pm and was not conscious in 2016 until 5 am when I had to go to the bathroom.
The first thought I had in 2016 was not “Happy New Year”, but actually
I wonder if there is a Black Widow in my slipper.
I know such wild party tales are something you only see in movies, but I am actually going into 2016 with a huge sense of optimism. Things looked up at the end of 2015 and I am so excited.
Also, there as no black widow. That was just something that I saw in a documentary once and returns to my brain in half-conscious early morning bathroom walks. Also, if there is a snake in the toilet, another thing I saw in a documentary that I think about when I am not fully functioning.
Anyways, 2016 is going to be weird (this is a reference to my blog title, because I am corny yet honest in my labeling) and I am pretty excited about it.