So, next Thursday is my last day living in California.
My company decided to transfer me to Utah in July and I said yes.
Now, personally I was going back and forth about it in my head. I wasn’t sure if I really wanted to go or not and I was rather torn.
I have never lived in Utah before and I don’t really know too many people who do.
Pretty much just starting over fresh here…
As I have been going about my week and people have been approaching me about moving, they have been asking me pretty much the same questions.
“Are you excited? Are you scared? How are you feeling about this?”
Here’s the thing, I am not really feeling anything at the moment.
Now, I am stressed out. I can feel that.
At one point this week I seriously felt like I was going to have a heart attack I was so stressed out, but I did calm down.
I’m on a short fuse though. I will blow up at any second over anything that is willing to be my scapegoat.
However, outside of the stress that comes with trying to move, I am not really thinking about it yet.
I have a place I am going to live. I have hotels for the next weekend when I am driving up there.
I don’t have much stuff to pack up. 4 Rubbermaid boxes.
Everything I own can fit into 4 Rubbermaid boxes. That’s a bit scary.
Anyways, everything is pretty much done for my move except for actually driving to Utah.
So, I don’t know how to feel right now. I just am waiting almost while everyone else asks me how I am feeling.
My mother keeps giving me these long hugs and telling me how much she loves me.
My favorite supervisor at work told me today that I should just get a webcam since we are still going to be at the same company, that way I can web chat with people at our California office through the company chat.
One of my coworkers started hugging me and almost crying when I told her that Thursday is my last day at this office.
I was a bit shocked to see how many people were upset I would be leaving.
And then why am I not more upset?
I mean, I feel like I am supposed to go and I am ready to go. But should I be more sad that I am leaving?
I don’t know.
Anyways, thought I would share part of why I have disappeared lately.
Trying to relocate and figure out life and crap.