2 am.

Okay, I know that I have talked about this multiple times before about waking up at 2 am.
You see, I do not have trouble falling asleep, I do have trouble staying asleep and time has shown that if I am going to wake up in the middle of the night, it will mostly be around 2 am.
I’m not sure why this is the magic time.

The problem with waking up at 2 am is that you are then faced with the choice of actually looking at your phone or just laying there.
A lot of people (my mother included) would say that looking at your phone is what wakes you up. But I can attest that I would still be awake if I didn’t look at my phone.
You see, I would just end up laying here with my eyes closed. Then I would rub my eyes and the sleep comes off, but I would still keep them closed. Then my mind will wander to all the places I have never wanted it to go.
This is not my first time, thanks.

Another “major” decision that one has to make when waking up at 2 am is whether to go to the bathroom or not.
I mean, you would probably feel better and a little less restless if you went, but on the flip side you will really be awake if you go to the bathroom.
You will also have to walk through a dark house that may or may not have spiders in it that you cannot see.
If sounds like a 90s video game, that’s because it is.

Anyways, the thing that is annoying about waking up this early is not having to find something to do or make big decisions, it’s that I have to be up at 4:30 am for work.
But I didn’t wake up at 2 am all the others nights I didn’t have to get up for work. I was completely fine and I take sleeping pills to prevent this crap.
I have heard that I am a very anxious sleeper before. Which is true, I can feel it.
Once my mind shuts down, a lot of the anxieties that I block out during the day are free to pester me.
And I find having to go to work after a long absence (4 days) is one of those anxieties.

That’s all really. Probably going to post again when I’m actually awake fully.

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