So, today was my first day of my new seasonal job(I moved to California last Tuesday). And as I was laying in bed trying to fall asleep tonight I realized something; I said a lot of really weird things today.
Every 6 months or so, I start to get feed back from people very close to me saying that I should change some of my social habits. This of course sends me into a worrying state about my personality and the way I act around people.
Now, my mother keeps telling me that I have been through a lot these last few weeks (breaking up with my boyfriend, quitting my job, moving to California and away from the place I grew up. No B D). She says that because I have had so many changes, now is not the time in my life where I should be worrying about what my psychological problems.
As if I could just suddenly stop worrying.
Well, I have moved to a new state. Which means people act a lot differently and have a completely different social environment and set of expectations than they did in Las Vegas.
It is a bit weird to think that there is such a huge difference in culture just from changing states, but there is. Example: Southern people or people from Utah.
So, I really don’t know how people act here in California and now looking back on my day, I said some really weird things.
Of course I know why I said those things, but it is not like I can go back and explain to everyone why I said them. There is no commentary option for real life. Plus, no one watches commentary anyways.
But what this leaves me thinking is that maybe I am one of THOSE people. Those really weird people who say oddball things out of nowhere.
I mean, I’d like to think that I am one of those weird people who say weird things because they are just so smart they can’t help but say weird things. But I am pretty sure I am not one of those super smart people. I think I am just someone who says weird things because they are a weird person.
Maybe I just don’t know how to act. I just don’t know.
Anyways, interacting with other people is stressful. Everything is kinda stressful right now. I find that when I am stressed, worried or focusing really hard, I clench my jaw without noticing. I am now at the point where my teeth are hurting from being pressed together so hard.
I don’t really know what to do about that or about my weird social practices.
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