Those of you who are of a creative mind-set know that your creativity can be like a volcano when you are not using it often. The need to inspire and be inspired. The obligation to create something, anything begins to become unbearable to the point where you are about to burst. You feel a restlessness under your skin and a distraction in your brain as you become overloaded with ideas that are needing to be expressed. You start looking for avenues to put these ideas to use in and until you do, you are a walking time-bomb.
It’s taken me a couple of years to be able to repress these feelings. A lot of ignoring. A lot of time spent trying to clear my mind. And sadly, a lot of shooting myself down. After so much time in these, I have reached a state where I do not use my creativity and for the most part it doesn’t bother me.
Every once and awhile when everything I have been working towards falls apart and I’m back at square one against this need. When you lose everything you are striving for, your instinct as a creator kicks back in and you feel the need to inspire.
That’s where I am at right now.
So I finally have been taking some steps to do the things I’ve been wanting to. I’m kinda freaking out about it, but we shall see where this goes.
That was some sort of warning.