Let’s try this again.

Do you ever remember that one moment when you were so sure of yourself that you couldn’t fail? That moment that every single one of us has had where we are just so full of blinding confidence. We are on top of the world. We are invincible. We are immortal.
Do you remember the moment after that one? The one when you failed and were hurt? When you realized your immortality wasn’t as strong as you thought. That moment after you jumped when you realized that gravity does work.

Today my father showed me a picture of what he wants to cut his hair to look like. Imagine my shock when the man’s hair has been the same the entire time I’ve known him. I was born looking at that hair. He wakes up and his hair is the same. He SHOWERS or SWIMS and his hair stays the same. It is like a rock. Immovable. And now after almost 20 years, he’s cutting it?
He is 53. So I asked him if he was going through a midlife crisis. His reply was “We are all going through a midlife crisis.” My reply was “Are you going through more of a midlife crisis than everyone else?”

I didn’t realize how true what he said was til later. Everyone is in a midlife crisis. It seems like my life is falling apart all the time. So many times things don’t work out the way we want them to. Or everything is going great and then all of a sudden something goes horribly wrong. It’s heart wrenching.
I hate the fact that no matter how hard you try at something, it won’t always work out. I remember when I was 16 and I was in love with a boy. I was TOTALLY head over heels. And I used to think “There is no possible way that I can love this guy so much and he not love me back.” But guess what, it is very possible. In fact, it’s very probable as well. People have their own opinions and abilities to feel for themselves. Leaving some of us getting the short end of the stick.

So here is my conclusion: Everyone is having a midlife crisis. We are in the middle of life, and it’s a crisis.


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