Leave my door open just a crack, cause I feel like such an insomniac.
So my family is full of heavy insomniacs, but I have never really been one of them. In fact the opposite, I could sleep anywhere and at anytime.
On an interesting side note, if I’m not at my house I will sleep in my clothes and on the floor. I will just lay down wherever and sleep, I don’t want to change into pajamas and I don’t want a blanket or pillow, I just want to sleep where I am. I never liked sleepovers. Occasionally I can sleep in a Hotel bed, but a lot of times I am thinking of the floor while I am laying there. I really don’t know why.
Anyways, I could literally sleep anywhere and at anytime. I could be on a median in the middle of a noisy highway, and I could sleep. I was like an infant, I need lots of sleep and if I didn’t get it, I was super cranky. I’m always tired, forever and ever, no matter how much I sleep. My mother teases me and says I was born tired and had a relapse.
One in 3 adults has insomnia sometimes. One in 10 adults has chronic insomnia. And even though no one is really “sure” if it’s a genetic disorder, almost everyone in my family seems to have it. I have always been really good at avoiding some of my families passed on diagnoses. But lately, my inner genetic insomniac is fighting its way out.
Why do I tire of counting sheep, when I’m far too tired to fall asleep
They say that insomnia can be a chronic thing or it can be a sometimes thing. Well my insomnia started about 4 months ago when I was in the hospital. I still am not sure if it is chronic or sometimes, because I would say once every 2 and a half weeks I can sleep really well. I guess that is how long it takes for my body to completely crash.
So my parents just think that my sleep patterns are off, that I take too many naps in the day time and then stay up too late. Well, it’s gotten to the point where I can’t even nap anymore. I will feel the need to nap in the middle of the day. I will be so ridiculously tired that I can barely stand to stay awake for another moment, and I have learned that when I feel these ways with the way my sleeping patterns are going, I don’t want to skip out on a nap whether it’s going to screw up my sleeping schedule or not. I will lay in bed for a while during the day trying to nap, I cannot sleep in the day now either.
Doctors believe that one of the cures for insomnia is exercising. Well, today my best friend took me all around the world shopping for new work clothes. Which I loved! But on crutches, it was a full body work-out moving from one place to another. My arms, my legs, my abs. EVERYTHING! By the time I got home, I was exhausted to no end. I came home, crawled up the stairs and practically fell into bed. That was at 9:20. How surprised was I when I re-awoke at 11:45. What the heck? That was not a nap. There is no napping at night, there is sleeping. Real, honest sleeping. I want that. But no, I laid in bed for another hour, waiting to see if I would be able to salvage the nights sleep, that I would be able to still end up with the 10 hours I laid down hoping for. Not at all, I was as awake as it gets and I’m so tired of laying awake. I guess what I’m saying is, I think pretty much every sheep in the world is pissed at me right now and I’m very much expecting a riot sometime soon…